They Say

They say honesty is the best policy, but honestly I don't know how to be, open and give you each and every part of me. Funny isn't it? Naw, but it's always been a part of me. Like an arm or leg, you take it away and throws me off balance. People wonder why, they want to inquire. "Why can't you do it Crys? "Mine comes with such ease." Well I can't do you, I can only do me and opening my heart is about as easy as someone with stage freight trying to to MC. It just don't go, together you and me, I wanted to share all that was inside of me. But you and me, it feels like it won't ever be. So all I have, it just stays locked here inside of me.

I want to let freedom ring, like my man Martin said but my fear its like the Klan and it stops me, DEAD! All my hopes and dreams of openin up and sharin swing from the tree like my people's ancestry. How do I get em down? How do I revive em?? Can I even do it, would it even work or should I let it all fall down? I gotta try right, I mean that's what they say. But what they don't get is I try everyday. I'm trying right now, see all this I could never say, to your face, but when I write it down, it flows like a river. See all this info you never get just chattin over dinner, so when I give it to you soak it in cuz who knows the next time I'll let you enter, my mind, my heart, see they each have a lock. You ask, "Why can't I get the code?", sometimes I'm not even sure if I have the code to unlock it all.

And in the beginning

Yeah, so, I am hella far behind in the times. Here we are in 2010, the latter half of 2010 at that, and I am JUST beginning to blog, haha! Ooossh well, we all go at our own pace right??? Why start now you ask?? Well, in the past writing was something I loved to do and used quite often to express myself. As years went on, I abandonded it and I'm not completely sure why. I am hoping to regain some of the freedom, insight, and peace I once gained from writing. Don't have too much else right now. Until we "meet" again...